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pictures and thoughts from rural Japan

Aug 18

I was walking around my new campus when I noticed there was a big group of Japanese exchange students behind me.

A few of them were singing one of the songs from Frozen. When they came up next to me we kind of made awkward eye contact, so I said in Japanese, “Sure is popular, huh?”

"EHHHHHHHHHHH?!"

They were totally not expecting someone to speak Japanese here. I had a real laugh with them for a few minutes as we talked about why we were here and what we were doing, but we went on our way.

It was awesome.

And now I found out there are Japanese girls in our apartment complex - a few of them just came by to use the microwave. This time no EHHHH, just “wait, you speak? why? why are you so good?”

It felt pretty good. Now to study even MORE!!


Aug 13

In other, more relevant news!

Reverse culture shock hasn’t been as bad as I expected, though I expect that’s due to having gone through it before, and the excitement/nervousness I feel about moving to a new state and going to a new school.

My default reply language is still Japanese, though - I bumped into a lot of people at a trampoline place and my brain was defaulting to sumimasen and the most interesting, gomen ne! for little kids, as I would speak to my elementary schoolers like that.

I was with a friend looking for something to eat and my brain said LET’S GET SUKIYA. Sadly there are no Sukiya in LA ;-;

Now that I think of it, I think my sour-ish situation with my JTE also kind of helps. I liked the job, but I don’t really want to go back to it. I miss elementary school more than anything, but now the prospect of learning more Japanese and getting to have fun with the language is trumping that feeling as well.


>check facebook
>”I’m so done with all of this. I just can’t.”
>”ugh so depressed today”
>”I swear shit like this always happens to me :(“

why is it that tons of people on my facebook feed have decided to become one of these people


Aug 3

Nothing new to report.

I haven’t really felt much change since coming here, but maybe that’s because I’m super busy.

The only things I’ve felt irritated about are kid’s TV shows here (man they are terrible) and some idiot church proclaiming how heretical gay marriage is.

I think it helps a lot that I’m going to a new place this time, instead of trying to fit in to the old place. Plus my family and I are a lot more well-equipped to deal with being back in the U.S.

I’m still not used to driving on the right. I keep almost telling people to watch out and drive on the correct side.

I did call Japan “home” earlier today. I guess I still think of it like that.


Aug 1

Wait, nope, pretty sure I hate everything.


I feel like I’m in a dream. It’s so weird to be home and think that I was in Shibuya yesterday.

I feel like I’m supposed to be going back any time. It hasn’t really hit me that I’m not.

I just wanna laze around all day until I can Skype my friends.


Jul 31

You know, though, I feel strangely peaceful.

I got really good closure with everyone. That’s probably why.


Just landed in LA. Not even off the plane yet.

First thing I thought: god damn is this place ugly.

Ha ha, time to hate everything for a while!


Jul 30

>dawn of the final day

I had a really hard time falling asleep, and I woke up early and tossed and turned for two hours, trying to go back to sleep. I had weird dreams, too.

Part of my brain still isn’t really understanding the fact that in twelve hours, I’ll be on a plane, but the rest of me understands pretty damn well.

I’m sad but so excited.


Jul 28

>talking with littlest brother on skype
>what did you like about summer camp?
>”well we did this thing called LARP which was really fun!”
>”also do you know Attack on Titan? I love that show!”


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