どうしよう?!

pictures and thoughts from rural Japan

Jul 30

>dawn of the final day

I had a really hard time falling asleep, and I woke up early and tossed and turned for two hours, trying to go back to sleep. I had weird dreams, too.

Part of my brain still isn’t really understanding the fact that in twelve hours, I’ll be on a plane, but the rest of me understands pretty damn well.

I’m sad but so excited.


Jul 28

>talking with littlest brother on skype
>what did you like about summer camp?
>”well we did this thing called LARP which was really fun!”
>”also do you know Attack on Titan? I love that show!”


Jul 27

Finally in my hotel, so I decided to give my favorite hair salon in Tokyo a call.

They speak English so I started off speaking English, but the woman was having a hard time with the shitty phone quality, so we just ended up speaking Japanese in the end.

It must have sounded hilarious to the people in the salon.

Either way, haircut the day I leave! Woo! It’ll be a nice fresh start for going back to the U.S.

I guess I’ll comment on leaving while I’ve got this open:

I definitely was sad, and I cried a little when leaving my village, but I wasn’t as upset as I thought I would be. Maybe it just hasn’t hit me.

Though at the same time, I’m so excited to be going back and seeing everyone, and for going to grad school, that I’m super ready to go back. I feel like I got a lot of closure with all the goodbye parties and speeches, too.

I’m sure it’ll hit me a lot more when I get on the airplane and go home, but to be honest right now I just want to enjoy my last few days (Tokyo Disney! Haircut! Hanging with friends!) and go home.


Jul 26

It’s taken me forever to write about this but I finally remembered.

It’s no secret that Japan loves its vending machines. They’re everywhere. You don’t have to drive very far to find a Happy Drink Shop, and little ones are scattered here and there.

There’s one just a minute away from my apartment that I like to walk to, and it talks to you. And it says different things depending on the time of day.

8:00 AM: Good morning! // Thank you very much! Please do your best today!

1:00 PM: Hello! Would you like a cold drink? // Thank you very much! Please try your best this afternoon, too!

Alternate 1:00 PM: Hello! Man, is it hot…how about a cold drink! // Thank you very much!

6:00 PM: Good evening! // Thank you very much! Good work today!

I can’t remember if it said something in the winter, since I didn’t go to the vending machine much in winter. But every time I go it’s just so cute.

It also has a little roulette. If you get 4 numbers in a row, you get a free drink. Of course, almost every time it has something like 3334 or 4445, which is annoying….

…BUT I WON IT ONE DAY A FEW WEEKS BACK.

I really wanted to win a drink before I left Japan, and it happened! I was so freakin’ happy!

I’m going to miss that vending machine.


>me speaking japanese normally

>me speaking japanese on the phone

one day I will conquer the phone


Jul 24

It’s weird.

I leave my village in just over 48 hours.

I’ve been so busy between nomikais and goodbyes and cleaning and packing and getting all my accounts shut down.

It doesn’t really feel like I’m leaving, but my body and brain definitely know.

The weirdest thing is that I feel like i just want to be alone, just shut myself away in my apartment until it all passes.

I guess that’s just part of not wanting to leave, though. If I stay here all day I won’t have to cancel the accounts or say goodbye.

It won’t really hit me until I’m on my way, I guess.


Jul 22

Goodbye thing went by without a hitch.

Cried a bit but not as much as I thought I would. Read my speech and it all went well.

Only bad thing was a big ass mucus string came out of my nose when I was crying at the beginning of my speech and I had to grab it and wipe my face like an idiot.

Still, feel pretty good. I get to spend my last lunch with my first years, and then it’s all over.


>have to give goodbye speech in front of everyone

>kids will perform for me

oh god I just want this day to be over so I can go home and sob in a corner

but at the same time I don’t wanna leave muh babies


Jul 21

>people on Facebook who only message you when they want you to do a favor for them

>’hey none of my other friends are responding so can you look this up for me in japanese?’

at least interact with me at times other than you needing my help


Jul 20

I stopped at a 7-11 on my way to the train station this morning. As I get out of the car, the car pulling out rolls down its windows.

"SENSEI!!"

6 AM and two of my third years boys are waving at me. I wave back.

"Where are you going?" I ask.

"Otsuki Station!"

"Oh, me too!"

"EHHHHH?!"

"I’m going to Shikoku."

In unison, they responded “SHIKOKU?!”

"Yep! See you!"

Later I caught up to their car and they gave me a little bow/wave.

It was such a nice little thing to warm up my morning.


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